A love ballad starts off slow, usually signifying the gradual growth of a bright and new beginning such as the sunrise in the east. In the beginning love is an innocent attraction only looking at the brilliance and luster of what each has to offer unconditionally…

Can one have such a thing called love and allow it to grow beyond the physical, emotional terms in life? Not to mention materially? Can one actually climb to the realms of loving only one companion physically, emotionally and spiritually simultaneously and yet not have a deficit in any category? What is love "worth" if you cannot do so in it's purest form of an undying unconditional state of being.

As with the many love pursuits, the flare of excitement and mystery lends its self to monotony and the sheer need of wanting to progress such as any life form would…when all is said and done the depths of your soul always wants tot either pull you near or pushes you away in another direction….

I have that one special love…my love…"Theo"

"Theo" (you can name and claim your own) is special to me not only because of my love for him but the familiarity that my soul feels from the warmth, the connection the embrace that my soul feels with or without his physical presence. The pull and need in wanting to grow more and more…

The bond that we have made has made me strong……..only to sigh, if I feel in anyway when he has been gone for long only because he's become a part of me in every sense that I no longer feel that we are two but one in whole as everyone knows one cannot survive without a "heart".. It could not be this way if I did not his love his essence first. All of what makes him physical, but firstly and foremost what makes him spiritual! I am not talking about a "soul mate" as possibly one may have a few throughout many lifetimes. I am not talking just about a partner as our society has tainted the customary values… What I am talking about is "loving thyself" this is what I have done through loving my love, "Theo".

If this be a love ballad as sweet as a ballad is… it's not sad, nor unhappy, never causing anger or frustration…it's uplifting, supportive, happy, loyal and dedicated to rising above adversity and the eternal rebirthing of higher union of self! This ballad is no different from the rest of the many other ballads once remembered many times and more…as my love has grown into a timeless keepsake that will be constant and strong well after all is said and done. But I ask myself in all sincerity how can this be to calculate an end since I "have" loved him since the beginning and will throughout what I know as time…. Let's just say that we all grow and each time it's a new birth a new realm of knowledge and acceptance… My love for "Theo" will always have it's cycles such as even so as the lunar cast, but within each cycle of our love has elevated to the next and has been a stepping stone to a union of one final love. When it's done? When will it be over? Never.. till we are one and then the birth of yet more love will always be yet to come!

The key to happiness? Love thyself, and love your partner through yourself, loving ones soul first will cause a bond that would be unbreakable! Through the richness of life you have but one soul to embellish one to perfect…if you so choose to share your soul with another…do so wholeheartedly and with vigor. Life is too short not to love in it's purest form. If at this time you are not in a relationship for what ever reason you should always look to "self" before you love another..as in all relationships that may end up not working it is usually because self is not loved nor discovered…The most beautiful return you can have in love is when you have been true to self and someone accepts that "self" "you" unconditionally.